my dreams, they haunt me.

story of my life by perplexing aesthetics on polyvore.com

i don't know what to do anymore.

i had the worst dreams like night.

i feel like i just need to pack up and leave everything. because everything always reminds me. the whole situation fits in so many parts of my life.

i feel like i'm never a priority, and maybe i never will be.

maybe i should stop with all males. never get married. be complete all on my own.

but i make it sound like i have the choice. i don't. that'd imply that someone actually wants me. that i'm actually worth something to someone.

i feel so shut down.

so, i'm going to go listen to old depressing sheryl crow, sarah mclachlan, and all of the other stuff that makes me want to drop off the face of the planet.

"nothing's true and nothing's right, so let me be alone tonight. cause you can't change the way i am. are you strong enough to be my man?" - sheryl crow

then, i'll get ready for the day and go on like everything is fine, even if i feel like my world is falling apart.

because that's how i do.