i'm missing you to death, but it's all for the best, i know.

"i do believe it's true, that there are roads left in both of our shoes. if the silence takes you then i hope it takes me too. so brown eyes i hold you near, 'cause you're the only song i want to hear. a melody softly soaring through my atmosphere..."

this is day 5/40 of my journey.

i do at least one sketch a day in my sketchbook. to summarize how i felt that day.

so let's recap yesterday/last night...

so, i cleaned. then, i got ready. dressed as harry potter. cool. my household had a little party sort of thing. people came and went... kayla, haylie, kayla's boyfriend, nikki, carrie, savannah, cameron, me, tyler, amy, scott, julia, pat, and a few other people stopped by. then, kayla and her boy justin decided we were going to do something.

so we went to pekin (tyler and i plus them) and went to a haunted house.
yep, it was lame. but i still practically cried the whole time. i hate clowns.
they scare me so much.

then, after that, we decided the night was still young.
so we went to rocky horror. and kati was there. (kati is tyler's crazy cousin. love her. she gets real into it.) (see picture.)
rocky horror was awesome. i can't wait to go again next year, with ashlee.
took a shower this morning and there was toast and rice in my teased hair from rocky horror.
ha. ha. ha.
loves it.

well, i didn't get home until about 2. so, tyler slept on the couch, since he was too tired to drive home.

then, this morning, i went to church.

i served today, for the first time in a few weeks...
since everything in my life fell apart.
quest costume party today.
i dressed as a coffeebucks barista. bahaha.
(so friday - amy winehouse. saturday - harry potter. sunday - barista. random? yes.)


i talked with bethany and chris after church. it went well i suppose.

i'm still not sure about going back to reality. we will see.

i totally remember being an 8th grader in quest and going into reality at the end of the school year. and how awesome melody and i thought it was. ha, no one saw any of this coming. i never thought i'd see the day where i didn't want to be apart of that anymore.

well, maybe i do want to.

God is working on my heart. we just have to wait and see.

some days are ten steps forward, others are forty steps back.

maybe i'm not getting anywhere.

maybe i'm getting everywhere.

i just need to be happy.

quote of the day - "i practice bi-partisanship. i was bumping and grinding on the dancefloor with sarah palin last night and did a shot with barak obama!" - chris cote, in a facebook chat with me.

ha.