you are so much more.

"well, let's start with the fact that you are so much more than i had hoped for."

i was just thinking of some things that have been said to me, and what has been the greatest, and what has been the worst.

of course, i love being complimented, especially on my appearance (i am a girl...so...yeah) but, i've decided i hate being called
1. sexy
2. hot
3. anything similar to the above
because, when complimented, it makes me strive to make the compliment i received more true. and those aren't things i need to strive for, and i need to strive for things other than vanity anyways. no need to feed the beast.

and, i'd like to think there is more to me than my body anyway.

some of the greatest things that i can remember being told are things like compliments on inner beauty, loving God, and being funny. (side note: i love being told i'm funny because i think 99.87% of the things that come out of my mouth are dumb. one of the few things i love being told different on.) oh, and my knowledge on politics. i eat that up.

greatest thing i've ever been told was when someone told me i'm meant for amazing things. thinking about it just makes me feel...[idontknowhowtodescribehowifeel.]

have you ever wanted to go back into time, to a place where you were really genuinely happy?
i want to go back to the last week in july, and the first week of august. july 26 to august 8th. life was so good.

in june of last year, anne and i started making our summer 100, to insure that we'd have a completely memorable summer. we didn't finish our summer 100 (it actually became a lifetime 100 since we didn't do some things and we have to wait 'til next summer like the elmwood sunday concert. bahahaha) but looking back, it turns out i got so much more than i had hoped for this summer. and i learned so much about myself this summer, and what i want out of life.

needless to say, i'm still learning.

so, i'm talking to my cousin russ. he's the most legit man ever. and his sons are adorable too. aaand, he calls me "ray gun" instead of ragan. that's how legit he is. he's in texas. i want to go there. (liz lemon?) and because everything in my life fits on a list, i'm going to make a list of places i want to go. and maybe even a reason or two to go there, if you're lucky.

texas. why? republicans. lots of 'em. and everything is bigger there. bigger. better. aaaand, the cowboys.
atlanta. why? because i'm ghetto. or, cnn.
new york city. why? well, why not? i'd love another sarah palin condom. and i want to go shopping there. i'd get some sweet swag.
upstate new york. why? because i'll probably go there next summer, so i may as well add it to the list.
washington dc. why? because i love history.
alaska. why? because i'm going to live there, duh.
london. why? history. and shopping. and prince william. ;)
california. why? because i was born there. but i don't remember it, obviously. i want to fish there. bahaha.
north dakota. why? just because. even just driving through it would do the trick for me.
another beach in south carolina. why? i love driving down to south carolina, and i love every beach i've been to down there so far.
tokyo. why? my mom. and shopping. and city.
and, where ever that picture i posted is taken, i want to go there.

hm, other ideas.
-camping somewhere i've never been before, so i can watch the sunrise from the outdoor view of a new place, while in my sleeping bag.
-swim with dolphins. where can i do that? abby told me they feel like cold hot dogs. gross.
-somewhere i can parasail, and windsurf. even though i'm terrified to parasail.