i had the notion that you'd make me forget the world

" i will sleep another day. i don't really need to anyway. what's the point when my dreams are infected with words you used to say? i will breathe in a moment as long as I keep my distance. i wouldn't want to go messing anything up. so don't go worrying about me. it's not like I think about you constantly. so maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect your life, anymore. "

currently listening to: all hail the heartbreaker by the spill canvas.

so, i'm on the phone with tyler right now. talking to him while i do my sketchbook, then bed. i ache all over. this is just not a good day. atleast i'm ending it well. my mom got inked. in 41 days, i can too. well, 40 days and 1.5 hours, but who's counting?

we had nerd herd today as well. i love nerd herd. and i got some eskimo kisses from melody. both of those things were lovely.

life is sweet. i just need to open my eyes and see it.
but right now, it's a little difficult. i can't wait to have rights to my best friend back. i'd love to have ashlee in my life (more) to keep me level headed.

i feel so young. and yet, i feel so old. i hate this inbetween. like, i'm old enough to make some decisions, but i still feel like i'm being treated like a baby with others.

i started (again) reading Jesus for President. i started it once before, but i needed to restart. my algebra teacher left me a piece of paper in it with a note on it. it's good, so far. i'm glad i had a nice friend who bought it for me.

all good things come to an end, i suppose.

"I've finally realized that sometimes you lose the good things in life to make room for the great things"

i stole that from emily, who stole it from post secret. and she claims they stole it from God. maybe, just maybe, this isn't too much of a stretch.

my, how i long to sort things out.

sketchbook is calling. and i've got some emotions to pour into it. through the fingertips, onto the paper.